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Fye aka Samuel Tristan Jorbins
23 Years Old
Capricorn / Water Pig + Wood Rat
Mood Of The Week: Ain't Mandatory For Now!
Feel Free To Laze Around!!!
Groool!!!
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Polar Bear Family
Benjy
JoanneS2

Friends
Anna
Catherine
Isaac
Joseph
JunMing
Liling
Sandy
WingChu
Frana
Gina

School/Organisations
NewUrbanMale


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WishList:
- Migrate Out Of Singapore
- Pass And Graduate With Flying Colours
- To Keep In Touch With All My Friends and To Prevent From Being Leftout
- New Bag or Rather Bags
- Start The New French Class
- Don't Get Depress Over Small Stuffs
- Avoid Falling for Anyone... Had enough Of It Already
- Be A Dolphin Therapist
- A New MP3 Though I have a PSP
- Enjoy Life To The Fullest

Lurves
- Food Especially Chocolates
- My Friends
- Dogs & Cats
- My Beloved Dolphins
- God (Hopefully I'll Get Into Heaven For This)
- My Bros: Ben Huang and Nick Hia
- My Sistaz: Vick Teo, Charmaine Ong and Mama Joanne



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I'll Figure This Space Out Soon!!!






Thursday, May 3, 2007

Thursday 4th May 2007 10.23pm

Sigh... It has been a month since I last blog... There are too many things that happens at once... And I really mean many... Let me try to get all the details here one by one.... Oh now I'm wondering where to start first either by immportance or by occurences... I'll try to blast everything.... Today I went to my Bio lecturer's wake. From what I heard, he pass on due to AMI ( Acute Myocardiac Infarction).. Sorry Benjy, I'm of not much help, can't console for nuts so all I can do is cry with you... Then the ceremony starts whereby we all walk around the coffin to take a last look at him... I thought of going last and let the rest go first so that it won't affect me that much but I was proven insanely wrong. People passing by and tears flow from each person's eyes and each emotions that was let out was too heavy for me too handle, something an empath have to live with.. Then tears flow from my eyes, slowly yet powerfully, then the next thing I know I am crying.... Crying due to others emotions then slowly it went too deep into me and my memories about him makes the sorrow mine... I tried to forget but each time the vision fades it becomes clearer, not that I do not want to forget him, it is just an automatic process... The counsellors were not of much help, they made my situation worse and more worse... I can't express it anymore than how I feel... Not every words is worth every emotions...

This is for you, Mr Raj:
Passing On With Love


Sympathies and Condolences are not worth
every words that I could Say or Write,
The Tears that flows are not worth any Gold
or Diamond shining Bright,
The Memories and Feelings I will keep them
very Near and Tight,
Your Spirit and Soul, I will pray for Day and
Night.
This is one sad experience, so far I have never cried at any funerals, be it my uncl or my great grandma.. I do find it strange but somehow its a memorable thing. I will always see Mr Raj in the blue shirt and black pants and walking with full of poise. The thing that makes me remember him the most is that he taught us beyond school hours and the lessons is WORTHWHILE as his teachings is so simple yet memorisable. He postponed his date for a few hours while he taught us. He had buffet with his date on that day... Somehow I feel like I make a mistake by letting him stay and teach us as he should have spent his time enjoying with his date eating out and not repeat the same thing to us over and over again....Sigh.......
This is a current news from my mum. My cousin does not seem to have any hope left. He was suffering from a tumour in the blood, he went for chemotherapy and stuffs even took his sister's bone marrow in order to cure him. For a while, he looked fine and seem to have recovered but now his conditions is getting worse. When I last visit him which was like yesterday, he looked like a bag of bones to me and I can hardly understand what he says due to slurring of speech. Now the doctor wanted to heal him by using his sister's bone marrow again and if it fails, it means that he really has no hope. I think now his hope is more like a 0.01%. His family is a good family, always helping mine. I really do not understand why these has to happen to the good people. Is there some kind of fun in doing so to the good people instead of the bad ones? Or the poor ones instead of the rich ones? Somehow I lost hope in God yet there is a glimmer of hope somewhere deep within me but Hope's full name is Hopeless so I can't depend much on it. We'll just have to wait for the news to see what is happening.
My uncle's getting married so do my cousins and my last uncle. Why do these people like to trouble others, I really don't get it. Just get married and don't make it grand... Gosh... And I got to help with stuffs... Sigh.. My hand is full of stuffs and things keep coming in.... I'll continue bout this some other day... For now I gotta sleep... Tomorrow is Sims for me. Ciao for now and see ya soon.....

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