Fye aka Samuel Tristan Jorbins
23 Years Old
Capricorn / Water Pig + Wood Rat
Mood Of The Week: Ain't Mandatory For Now!
Feel Free To Laze Around!!!
Groool!!!
Pls Feel Free To Email.

Or MSN Me At aquamew@hotmail.com

Polar Bear Family
Benjy
JoanneS2

Friends
Anna
Catherine
Isaac
Joseph
JunMing
Liling
Sandy
WingChu
Frana
Gina

School/Organisations
NewUrbanMale

WishList:
- Migrate Out Of Singapore
- Pass And Graduate With Flying Colours
- To Keep In Touch With All My Friends and To Prevent From Being Leftout
- New Bag or Rather Bags
- Start The New French Class
- Don't Get Depress Over Small Stuffs
- Avoid Falling for Anyone... Had enough Of It Already
- Be A Dolphin Therapist
- A New MP3 Though I have a PSP
- Enjoy Life To The Fullest

Lurves
- Food Especially Chocolates
- My Friends
- Dogs & Cats
- My Beloved Dolphins
- God (Hopefully I'll Get Into Heaven For This)
- My Bros: Ben Huang and Nick Hia
- My Sistaz: Vick Teo, Charmaine Ong and Mama Joanne

I'll Figure This Space Out Soon!!!

Monday 4th June 2007 11.42 pm

Hey hey hey people, I am back after so long and damn I had lots of things happening. Today itself just went to watch Shrek with Vic, Yati, Benjy, Gabe, Nick and Ain. I fell asleep at the start of the show but yeah manage to watch the rest of it. The show was cool but I think not as cool as the upcoming Fantastic Four. Today is also the starting of my new attachment at the Institute of Mental Health. It was damn freaking boring. I wish we were back at the ward and also it is damn scary with all the eyes watching and creeping up behind you. Oh yeah, sorry for the font on today's blog, I don't know what happen but I just can't seem to change it. Reminds me of being lost early this morning when I am heading towards Hougang Green to meet the rest for breakfast. Almost got cheated by an irresponsible old man. But who cares... May someone else trick him for tricking me.... Whahaha...

I feel empty yet full... I feel close yet apart... I feel needed yet unwanted... Am I being what people wants me to be or should I be who I want to be? People still do not understand me... Yeah and they'll go talk to me in order for me to know you more better... How can I??? Confirm by letting people know I will lose alot. And these alot are basically tomodachis( if you all even know what that means). I feel like I had make a very very very big mistake. How can I go on living like this??? I'm in eternal despair with a fake mask over. No one actually knows what it means to be me... Everything's not okay but my mouth is so heavy to say its not okay. I will always end up to be saying yeah everything's fine and I can very well damn handle it, when all I do is push it aside. Do I have to throw everything away and lead a new life?? Throw the past and create my own future??? Throw my friends away and make new ones??? Start a life which is so full of ME??? It sounds like I am well damned being selfish, selfish to myself and others... Why can't I just be me and ignore what others wants of me??? Huh, putting up a brave front when there's full of loose screws in every joints... Its time for me to go and ponder and wonder of what will happen next....

Labels: deception, despair, lies, ME, sorrows, suffering

.][-Held my bear tightly on
11:36:00 PM